I am. Am I?

Dear God,
Am I about to enter a new life?
Am I about to leave it all behind?
Am I ready yet?
I am. Am I?

Yeaaay for Yo'i shoes and Y!!

Finally! After several visits to several shoe stores, including those online shops, I got my new yo'i shoes! It was a regular Saturday morning until I decided to buy that pair of Kappa shoes. Luckily, Y was there to accompany me. He was super nice, not grumpy or cranky at all, hihihi..

He was not grumpy, trust me. He just didn't know I took his picture ^^v

It took us (me, sorry, hahaha) to (over) analyzed those shoes. After several laps, chit-chat over coffee, bunch of rational advices and opinions from Y and a moment sitting on a try-on-shoes bench, I decided to buy the manly shoes, instead that girly shoes.Yeah, the one I wore in my right foot.

Left or right?

Finally, Cinderella has new pair of yo'i shoes. The old ones are now rest in peace, but will remain in my heart always. But I still want the girly shoes, I don't know why!! Hahahahahahahahahahahaa... I told him about it and we somehow agreed to buy the girly shoes next month. YEAAAH!

Those days that he missed

He stared at the calendar and realized what he missed. He missed her graduation day. He missed Christmas and New Year's eve but somehow managed to assumed that he was missing nothing. He did not miss her birthday but he is now wondering why he wasn't around on her birthday, and tried to remember whether he gave her birthday present or not. He missed almost all important events. On the other side, she tried to understand why he missed those days. Why she felt like she was not important at all. Why she felt like he took her for granted.

Little cousins no more

Now, visiting grandma and grandpa's houses are boring. Because my cousins have gotten bigger and they stop being cute little kids. It's not fun.

I miss the moment when they were little, crawling and babbling around, walking unsteady, laughing and crying in their cute ways. The moment when they were comfortable enough to be clingy to me, when they're not feel embarrassed to receive hugs and kisses from me. I miss their exciting voices calling my name whenever I came to visit them.

It's not that I don't love them anymore. Noooo.. I still am the big sister who loves her little cousins so much. It's just I cannot accept (yet) that they're not babies anymore. Now, those big boys and girls have their own 'teen-ish' world which is hard for me to get in.

I'm done trying so hard to blend with them, because in the end, the joke will be on me, like this one.

I once posted my 'wish' on my multiply site last January. Funny how time really flies and Ali (the number two littlest cousin) really grows too fast! Look the different expression. My little Ali is no longer little!!

Am I the only kid who doesn't grow up?