This morning I visited someone's blog, someone I know from college. She is now a managing editor in Jakarta's most prestigious teenage magazine. She started her career 4 years ago as an intern and ta-daaa.. look at her now.
I hate to say this, but I really envy her career path and it makes me looking even worst. I know, I started my career 2 years later than her, but hey... she got it right, while I did not. Well, what can you expect here. I can't even declare my self that I am this big-brand's copywriter. Maybe if there's such thing as a typewriter, I'll be it. The one who types, not the one who writes. I've been here for two years and nothing really has changed. Even though if I stay for another couple more years, I will still be the typewriter. No future I see. None.
I love this place, I love my friends, and just like her, I don't worry about the 'number'. That's why I stay. But then, I got this big opportunity to pursue master degree while working. Trust me, juggling two lives, as a student and as a employee, is not easy. Also, I have to be very thankful that my bosses and my colleagues are very supportive to me. So why envy her in the first place? I wasn't so sure.
Until the superego of mine whispered, "It's just a feeling of insecurity and fear of the unknown future."
"But, I want to be successful like her. I want to have a bright career!" I argued.
The superego smiled and whispered again. "You will, darling. You will and it will be as bright as hers, even more, I reckon."
I paused a minute and told her again, "Does it mean that I have to move from here? Or does it mean that I have to stick to the plan, wait for a year or so?"
"Something will lead you, girl. Just be faithful, and you'll be awesome!"
Will I?
